Saturday, July 26, 2008

Static

“I’m learning to fly
But I ain’t got wings
Coming down
Is the hardest thing...” ~Tom Petty

The dictionary defines static as either:

  • Motionless; not moving or changing, fixed in position
  • Broadcasting electrical interference in a radio or television; causing a random crackling noise or disruption of a picture.

And the antonym to static? (I can hear the answer from Secret-Agent-Mom-Foyce in my head, so I’d better make it snappy…) It’s moving.

So. Life is definitely, absolutely, unequivocally NOT static.

Yes, we are all very much aware of this simple fact….but it doesn’t mean we have to be entirely happy about it. At least, not all the time.

People move into your life…and people move out of it.

So, what’s it all about, Alfie??

I am trying with all my might to believe that everything happens for a reason…that there’s some kind of Cosmic Master Plan to our lives.

The alternative, that life is completely rock 'em-sock 'em (no) hairy-scary (uh-uh) hit-or-miss (nope) out of control (yikes) random would leave me with even more questions…and a hell of a lot less answers. It would also (probably) freak me out...maybe a little.

I’m exasperated though, at not being able to SEE THE BIG PICTURE NOW, so as to better understand why things happen as they do...or to effectively appreciate what is supposed to happen next. I have often used the analogy of “running on ice” to describe my life to this point. Those of you that know me and my penchant for winter (not.) realize that this is in no way meant to be good.

Moving forward at warp speed may sound like good fun in theory, but when you’ve no control over your direction and then you realize (to your horror) that you do not have the ability to STOP…(although you may fall, at any given time) the idea of running at all begins to sound as desirable as a cold shower on a cold New York day.

So, I will try my best to stop feeling like I’m running on ice….and start feeling like I’m learning to fly…because like it or not, life is gonna change.

And as Tom Petty so eloquently puts it:

“So I started out
For God-knows-where
I guess I’ll know
When I get there…”




(J~ Love you more…miss you already...always in my heart.)



Anonymous said...

:( I'm sad for you

CBMSB said...

Kathryn, my heart is aching for you and I don't even know why.
I think I'll go call my mother.

JH said...

KK, you need to lay in the sunshine, not the tanning bed, they say it emits "happy" hormones when the serotonin gets produced. Not that we all don't want to see your thighs or anything! Sorry I moved to the big NC, but you're gonna visit & we'll go on road trips & be just like Thelma & Louise!

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